Well when it rains it pours! I started to lose my voice before we went to the coast and by the time we came back I realized that I obviously didnt have a "cold" and needed to go to the doctor. The doctor confirmed that I had strep and we got Diego tested as well. Surprise! He had strep as well! Rudy started to feel bad so we called the oncologist and he called in a prescription.
By 10PM Rudy was complaining of itching on his face. His fever was staying steady and we made it through the night. By the morning though he had taken a turn for the worst. We went on to his infectious disease dr appt and they immeidately determined he needed to be admitted.
I have never seen Rudy so sick...his face was puffy and red; fever of 103, lethargic, eyes completely red (seriously completely red). We got him admitted and they started to work on getting his fever down.
Its interesting how everyone keeps asking what his diagnosis is..why is he here? I keep wanting to say "uh thats what I would like to know"; "you tell me"; "if I knew we wouldnt be here".
I reflect on how I was talking and acting when we started this journey to how I am now and its a stark difference. As one of Rudy's nurses said this morning "I'm impressed you know all his family history, seg/band numbers, symptoms. etc."
I thought about her statement and while it is second nature to me now I guess it isnt to everyone. I am amazed sometimes at how I stay so clear and calm during situations like the one today and I realize that its not me but God that provides me the clarity of thought and calmness necessary to handle the situation.
While I dont think I can or will believe that God did this to Rudy on purpose, I do believe that God put people in our lives and provides clarity to us to handle those situations that occur. Would I be able to handle this situation as well if I hadnt had to go through the process of worrying that Rudy had cancer? I truly dont think so...part of me thinks that I had to go through that in order to prepare me for this. I mean seriously once youve dealt and seriously thought about the idea of losing your soul mate can anything else that you deal with in regards to his sickness really be as bad?
So this evening there was a sight to see with the oncologist, infectious disease doctor, and hospital specialists having a pow-wow around Rudy's file (I swear they are goign to develop a case study on him) trying to figure out what's wrong. As of tonight we have no more answers BUT I feel we will. They have taken a ton of blood samples, chest xrays and are alternating 2 different antibiotics intraveniously.
Rudy's parents came in today (thank goodness). I'm not sure I could ever repay them for all the support and help they have been during this crazy time.
I promise to try and update each day during this stay...may be late but will be done!
Thank you for all your prayers and healing thoughts - we appreciate them all!
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